Kindle your mind,
PS. I try to understand why I chose to come back to blogging. And the only answer I got so far is that I need to rely onto something, as relying onto someone seems to be out of the question for me, now. I don't know how much this is going to take as I don't trust myself any more than I did last September, when I gave up blogging because I did not trust myself anymore. Pitiful, shameful - but this is it, the thought of someone so alone now as he always actually was:
I just think that tomorrow might be the end, and in such a case - the case of a hypothetical life-ending tomorrow, I would be sorry for wasting the hypothetical today.